finally i can blog..
been really sick these past 2 days but i'm going
back to school tmr..
got like high fever.
and couldn't really get outta bed..
feeling really emotional and stressed now..
there's so many things to do..
promos coming..
and yeah..
maybe cos i'm not feeling well
that's why i let these emotions get the mickey out of me..

i suddenly miss my brothers alot..
i really miss them
and i feel like i need them a lot now.
but they have their own families to take care
of i know.. sometimes it's so hard..
being without my bros.. with only mummy by my side..
like i feel i can't show mummy my emotions
sometimes because i want to be strong for her.
she's gone through alot and have sacrificed so
many things for me.. and i think it's unfair if
i burden her with more things that i know
i can manage by myself.
i know i shouldn't be feeling so depressed and all..
i'm really lucky to have everything i need
and so many great friends around me..
but sometimes.. it's kind of lonely inside.
like sometimes i feel really hollow,
empty.. like i need something to make me feel alive
but i don't exactly know what i want..

it's kind of strange but i think i know why i love animals
so much, like they don't judge me,
they lie on my lap when i cry,
they stare at me with their big glossy eyes when i
tell them how my day went or how horrible school is..
they let me cuddle them when i feel like i need a hug.

sorry i just feel really emotional now.
think i'm going to sleep it off..
ciao.